I didn’t look

I looked into a mirror once

and saw everything I felt

I saw blurry voices and

I saw stolen skin and

I saw thoughts that can’t

be unspoken

I looked into a mirror once

and saw everything I did

I saw forgotten secrets and

I saw whispered regrets and

I saw actions that can’t

be undone

I looked into a mirror once

and saw everything I heard

I saw blaring sirens and

I saw nervous screams and

I saw words that can’t

be undiscerned

I looked into a mirror once

and saw what I’d become

I saw this ugly mind and

I saw this dirty body and

I saw my self that can’t

be understood

I looked into a mirror once

and saw everything I felt

and saw everything I did

and saw everything I heard

and saw what I’d become

becoming who I wasn’t

I looked into the rearview

I saw lights dance, flashing

I looked through broken glass

I saw blood seeping in cracks

I looked down at the wheel

I saw bruising hands grip, tight

I looked into a mirror once

I didn’t dare look round at you

I looked into a mirror once

and I –

you never will again